Up until the age of 16, Heidi Barr did not believe in Jesus, that is until she met Him face-to-face after a terrible horseback riding accident. “I knew him immediately. Every cell in my soul knew everything about who He was. I should not have seen Jesus. Why should I see Jesus? My father told me Jesus was the greatest hoax ever perpetrated on mankind,” she recalled in a recent interview with Jews for Jesus. “Yet I knew Him. I have known Him my entire life and I love Him. I have loved Him with everything in me,” Barr said. Barr, now a mum and grandmother, is sharing more of her childhood near-death experience in her new book, “What I Saw in Heaven: The Incredible True Story of the Day I Died, Met Jesus, and Returned to Life a New Person.” In her book, Barr shares about her life, family struggles, and the redemption she found through God’s amazing guidance and grace. She tells readers how it was easy to spurn any belief in a higher power as a child because, although she was raised Jewish in a small Orthodox community in Iowa, her parents made it a point to tell her God did not exist.
“I was raised in a family that was atheist, but we belonged to this Orthodox synagogue and my father was not only an atheist, but we were only allowed to discuss God in our home if we were denying His existence,” Barr shared during her interview with Jews for Jesus. “He hated God,” she said flatly. Barr said her father used to repeat this mantra almost daily: “There is no God. There is no heaven, there is no hell, you are an accident of science.” Despite what Barr was told by her father, she said she believed in the “God of Abraham” and prayed to Him daily. But all that stopped at the age of 12 when she began to endure sexual abuse from the synagogue’s rabbi. “It kind of set off this spiral of not talking to God, getting into drugs, getting into dangerous situations until I was 15,” she explained. Barr says, at the time, she only found comfort and joy from riding her horse, Heather. But a freak accident changed the trajectory of her life and brought her face-to-face with the love, compassion, forgiveness, and inexpressible joy of Christ.
“I took off, headed out to hills on Heather, bareback…I was sitting there enjoying the day…when I suddenly heard hoof beats and I knew exactly what that meant,” she described. An Arabian white horse was uncontrollably running from a nearby barn, its owner was barely able to hang on. “She came towards me,” Barr explained. “The horse ran right by us, almost clipped us, and ran past. Heather reared up. The first time she reared up, I dropped the reins and grabbed her mane. The second time she reared up, her back feet stepped off the trail and she flipped over backward onto me. She fell across my body, fracturing my pelvis, breaking my back.” According to Barr’s account, those injuries weren’t fatal, but when the horse fell across her chest, she died. “The moment she fell across my chest, I left my body,” she continued. Barr says she found herself 40 feet up in the air looking down at the commotion taking place near the horse stable.
“I watched my horse roll over my dead body, and I was tossed like a rag doll…I saw my little sister scream and cover her eyes with her hands. I saw my other sister in the car with her face pressed against the window. I could see the Arabian running to the barn with the man flapping on her back,” she recalled. Then Barr noticed a white light, right near her shoulder. “And I turned to look over my right shoulder and there was a man up there with me,” she described. “And I knew Him. He then came closer, and He had this big grin on his face and I said, ‘Hi, I know you,’ and it was Jesus.” Barr immediately recognized Him, despite never learning about him. “Every cell in my soul knew everything about who He was. I should not have seen Jesus. Why should I see Jesus? I’m Jewish. My father told me Jesus was the greatest hoax ever perpetrated on mankind…and yet there was Jesus.” Barr said that in that moment all she could think about was that she knew Him. “I knew Him. I have known Him my entire life and I love Him. I have loved Him with everything in me,” she said. “All there was for me was Jesus.”
Barr gives an account, in great detail, of the personality of Jesus. “He is funny. He is joy. He is love. He is everything good in the universe in one person. Everything that is good and joyous and happy and life-giving is in Him,” she said during the interview. However, it was something unique that He showed her that still deeply impacts her today. “I had a life review, and it was like watching this tape of your life except it was 3-D and it was alive, and you were re-experiencing everything you had done,” Barr explained. “I saw Him from the time I was in my mother’s womb forming me, I saw Him sitting next to me when I was an infant talking to me. I saw Him at every stage in my life. He was always there,” she continued. The now mother and grandmother of three shared that the Lord also showed her the impact her words had on people – the good and the bad. “There was another time He stopped the tape to show me when I had hurt someone,” she shared. “I felt His heart shrink in His chest. I felt the impact my words had on Him. Everything I did or said to someone else, if it was a good thing I felt that. If it was a not so good thing, I felt that.”
Barr added, “God is watching…God is paying attention to every little thing we do.” Her next stop in this journey was to the Father. “It was a perfect white blemish-less light. It took up my entire field of vision. It was infinite in its scope, and it was alive. And the light was love and this was God…Jesus took me into that light,” she shared. She then found herself sitting in God’s lap like “a little toddler, kicking” her feet. Barr says in that place she “never felt so loved and so cherished,” adding, “God was every single molecule of love in the universe. He is love.” “I wanted to sit on God’s lap for all eternity,” Barr continued. The now-retired nurse shared that while she was on His lap she saw what she believes to be Heaven. “I saw grass. It was this beautiful green grass. I could see every blade of this grass in this infinite meadow. It was perfect and precise,” she described. “I see flowers…I could see every part of the flower, every vein of the petals…I saw grove upon grove of trees. I could see every tree, every branch, every leaf, and every vein on every leaf on each tree.” “And I realized everything was moving, but it wasn’t wind.
The grass was singing. The grass was singing the praises of God. The flowers and the trees were moving to the songs of the grass…It was God moving through all those things. They moved in God’s light,” Barr added. “And it struck me at the time that even on the most beautiful day here on earth, what we see is a mere reflection of what exists in heaven,” she writes in her book. Barr said that this part of her experience “left the biggest impression on her.” The Iowa native was sent back to earth, and she now shares a message of hope to those who feel lost and unloved. “After I died, I knew Jesus was with me. I knew He was with me every step of the way and that no matter what happened…and this is one of the things he told me…your life is in good hands.” He told her, “Good, bad or indifferent, I’m here. Your life is in good hands.”
Source: CBNNews
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