Jenny Weaver thought dabbling in the occult as a teenage witch would be “fun”. Instead, the torment that followed throughout her life became so unbearable that Jenny wanted to die. For Jenny, it all started as a supernatural game. “Things were happening. I was moving things,” says Jenny. “I would go up to a drawer to open it and before my hand would even touch it, the drawer would open.” “Lights would break when we would start talking about the demonic realm, glass would fall all over us,” says Jenny. But eventually, it turned into something much more sinister. Jenny grew up in Florida with seven siblings. Her home was dominated by abusive parents, who handed out punishment for the slightest offense. It wasn’t much better at their church that didn’t teach about a loving father, but a vengeful, angry God ready to condemn sinners to hell.
“I was always thinking God’s disappointed in me. God’s upset,” says Jenny. “So, I was really filled with shame and condemnation.” Then her father walked out, leaving 13-year-old Jenny, her siblings, and their mom destitute. “So, I must not even be worthy enough to be loved, to be thought of, to be cared for,” says Jenny. “You shouldn’t even be alive. Why are you even here?” she thought. “It would be better off if you just killed yourself.” Feeling powerless and unloved, Jenny started cutting herself and smoking pot. Then she saw a movie about teen witches that showed her a way to take charge of her life. Soon, she was pouring over books about witchcraft, Wicca, and the occult, and trying spells with her friends.
“Wiccan religion is, ‘Do what you want, but do no one any harm. I felt like I had power,” says Jenny. But that power was only an illusion because the turmoil in Jenny’s home, and within herself, remained. At 17, after a fight with her mum, Jenny ran away and dropped out of school. Bouncing between friends’ homes and drug houses over the coming years, she got into harder drugs, sometimes blacking out for days. “And I was so broken and so hurting all the time, that I engaged in just the craziest things you could imagine, and just gave myself away to whoever, whenever, whatever,” says Jenny. “It didn’t matter.” Then she moved in with a girl who came from a family of witches. Her new friend showed her the things she thought were harmless and fun opened the door to a dark, sinister, and very frightening world Jenny only thought existed in books and movies.
“You would feel demon spirits literally walking by you like a human being” says Jenny. “Touching you. Scraping the wall. It went from, ‘Oh, this is gonna be really fun, into, ‘I’m gonna choke you until you die.’ All the time. Terrified, she stopped practicing witchcraft, but the demon of addiction would continue to haunt and torment her for years to come. Jenny said “I would just lay there and go, ‘I hope I just die. I hope these drugs take me out this time.’” At 26, she was living with her boyfriend, Stephen, hopelessly addicted to meth. Then she got pregnant. One day, seeing no hope for her or her baby’s future “I just fell on my knees and I screamed out as loud as I possibly could, ‘God, help me!!!’” says Jenny. “It was the loudest, longest scream. ‘Ohhhh, please.’ And I didn’t see lightning, I didn’t see any of that, but I felt a peace,” says Jenny.
“That was the first time I felt the Lord saying to me, ‘I’m gonna help you.’” Jenny says that help came in an unexpected way: two days later she was arrested, sent to jail, and ordered to complete a drug treatment program. There, she began to hear about a different God, a father who was loving, merciful, and ready to forgive through his son, Jesus Christ. One night, Jenny whispered a prayer. I said, ‘God, I just want You to help me. I really want to love people, but there was such a hardness. And I just asked the Lord to take it. And I said, ‘God, I’m just gonna give You my life today,’” says Jenny. “And I surrendered to the Lord.” “And I knew that everything that I had gone through, everything that I had done, had been forgiven,” says Jenny. “And when Jesus did that for me, it changed everything. Everybody that threw me away, He came, and He healed that.”
On the day of her release, Jenny gave birth to a healthy baby girl, Cameron. Later, Stephen also got clean and accepted Christ, and the couple married in 2013. For a few years, Jenny still sensed a dark presence in her life. Then at a deliverance service at church, a woman led her in prayer to renounce witchcraft. “I would say, ‘I renounce,’ and I would try to say “witchcraft” but the demons wouldn’t let me,” says Jenny. “It was like my mouth was frozen, I couldn’t even get the words out, and they would say, ‘we’re not leaving, no’ says Jenny. Finally, “I knew there was a release, I could tell, I could feel it. I knew. And I was just, ‘Thank you, Jesus.’” Jenny said. With the past far behind her, Jenny went on to develop a close relationship with her mum. She was also able to reconcile with her dad a few months before he passed away. Today, Jenny is a home-school mum, entrepreneur, and worship leader, sharing her music and her passion for the Lord.
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