Laura Perry believed from a young age that she should have been born a boy. She completely transitioned into living as and legally being a male. But a request by her mother to design a Bible study website put her on the path to discovering the truth about God and who she was created to be. Here’s her story, in her own words: “As a little girl, I was full of energy, very hyper and very athletic. I had a hard relationship with my mum who was very quiet and much closer to my brother who was a very quiet obedient child, so I really began to believe that boys were loved more. Very early in life I began to believe a lie that I wasn’t loved as a girl and everything in life sort of got put through this lens of ‘I should have been a boy.” “When I was 8 I was molested by a boy who was a year older than me, and that really began to change me and I became very sexualized.
I got into pornography so in high school I was trying to be more of a girl to get the attention of the boys. I began sleeping around giving them whatever they wanted, and the more I did that the more they treated me like trash. “In coming years, I got more and more into pornography. I looked for random sexual encounters but nothing was satisfying anymore, so I began recounting all the fantasies I had as a child of feeling like a boy. I thought I was never happy because I was supposed to be the man in the relationship. So I went to a transgender group and was amazed that everyone was telling me how wonderful this is and how brave I was for coming out.’ “I began to take the hormones and at first, it was the greatest thing ever. I was on cloud nine. I began to grow a beard and sideburns. My voice began to get lower, even the body shape began to change.
In 2009, I legally changed my name, and eventually later that year I went to have a double mastectomy with a chest reconstruction to look like a male and I thought it was the epitome of everything I’d ever wanted. I was really excited about the results and I liked how I looked physically, but I realized that my surgery hadn’t made me a man. I was legally a male, but I realised I was still the same person just without breasts. This was devastating to me cause I really had believed that I would become a man.” “I had hardly talked to my parents in years but one day, my mum asked me to make a website for her Bible study and I didn’t have any interest in the Bible but I thought okay, I’ll make a website for you. As I began to read her notes, I was blown away by what I was reading and I thought, I have never seen the Bible like this.
I had always seen the Bible as God’s rule book. Now I could see a loving and faithful God, not the judgmental God that I had always seen before. I called her one day and I said, mum, you’ve got to explain this to me. I was so curious. I went from never talking to her to talking to her every single day. Then one day a crisis came up in my life and she said, ‘Honey you just need to trust the Lord’ and I was blown away at that moment. I had never heard my mum say that and I said mum what has happened to you, you are a totally different person from the one I grew up with. She had been radically transformed and it was at that moment that I knew the Gospel was true that I knew that Christ was alive and that there was a transforming power because I could see how my mum had been totally changed. That night I asked the Lord into my heart.
But I really wanted to be a man of God. I thought I could still stay as a man because as much as I had realized I couldn’t be a man, I could not face being a female. There was so much pain attached because of what all those guys had done, all those lies I had believed all my life. I felt like it was a shameful thing to be a female.” “After about a month of crying out to the Lord, I had a clear vision of Jesus getting down on one knee. He reached His hand out and said, ‘Do you trust Me?’ I remember at that moment thinking, if I take His hand, I will have to leave everything. But, I knew it was my only way out. I knew I was never going to have peace if I didn’t.” “So I took His hand and I walked away from my entire identity, my partner, my job, my financial security, the life that I had built for myself and left it all to follow Christ.”
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